Here is my small collection of original poetry that I may someday publish as a handmade chapbook under the same title as this website. I find the original meaning of the word chapbook fascinating: books filled with oddities that peddlers sold for cheap. That is why when I do end up finishing it, it will include fragments of songs I wrote, little illustration prints, custom stamp prints, poems, and perhaps quotes or short essays. The vision I have for it is unpolished and heartfelt. I also like the look and feel of coptic bound books, and that binding style seems beginner-friendly, so that is what I will use. So far, I have assembled a few letters of laid paper.
An Insomniac’s Hymn to the Old Moon
Why does one need sleep
Where the languid nightmares creep
Lurid and darling with twilight and starlings,
The midnight hour weeps.
Dead and heavy, weary beyond years.
My velvet brain was out to dry
Unraveling to silk tears—
Yet the sun is honey, drips
Up its yolk
Through your lead reflection,
Through rivers, eclipsed.
Shining bright above my head
Take the nighttime terrors in my stead
Lurid and darling with twilight and starlings,
The midnight hour weeps
Lurid and darling with twilight and starlings,
The midnight hour weeps.
Mater Matuta
Shimmering sea meets twinkling sky
as tangerine wanes with dying pyre.
Sailboats pass, seagulls fly,
and soon ripe figs blend with the sky.
Travelling Byronic Seagull
translated from a yellow-legged gull’s keow call
“The rhapsody of ardor's fate
now wanes and dims for me;
upon my wing I wear my heart,
for love it does not beat.
“So is my fate as the bird of the bay
Where merchants arrive to raise prices high;
Though stealing their roast beef is perfect to me,
I long to contend with each lost soul I see.
“For when love is sighing like the dying shores
and castaways find their homes,
I can’t help but think of the ship that sinks
and the sailor’s shanty of mourning.”
Axe and Axis
plural wordplay
When axes on their axes duel, they forge a cleated wheel
Half dissuades the masses, this cold front of burning steel—
Though on the chain no more remains degrees of separation,
Our notion of utopia’s an act of un-creation.
Geometry of A Heel-Sitting Venus de Milo
The dip that forms when she lays down to the side
Segues into a subtle slump, parallel to
The same curve that augments her sturdy legs.
All the beauty of the world explained in a moment,
The mystery of the parabola
Black and white photography in motion flashing lucky before our eyes before they undercranked into grotesque caricatures
Cyclical Return Home After Exile
because time changes the brain like the seasons change a forest
He was a stranger, a traveler who, like Odysseus, so lost in his own digression that it branched out of the fog. A strange clarity after displacement at the hands of your own loneliness, to wander through curiosity's forests.
Except it was not the way he remembered.
When he returned from sleep's thieving void trunks were barely thicker than his wrists; old growth was reduced to stubby rings lined with shelves of mushrooms, the kind their spores allowed you to write on with pressure.
Except even this was unlike the memory,
every word bled with each droplet that condensed in the air around him, though he could not see their cloud. Maybe the cloud wasn't invisible, rather consuming each stalk, muddling each shape and notion in the same manner as the droplets' attack on each word still learning their form. Splotches of red and yellow in place of the crisp green he was used to at the ends of branches.
He reached out to feel,
but the mist, fog, cloud—he did not choose to name this haziness—obscured their form. A branch snapped in the distance. Something could still see it.
The trees seemed to recoil from the winds the same way he recoiled from whatever was out there. He failed and had known it. How could he cease to recall the strange, jagged slopes from the treetops of his mind? Not powerful enough to soar over, a wayfarer stiff in forget, a sinking log. Droplets gathered into puddles. The whole cloud reeks of purification, the spores hardly hold their shape in the water, and every word pushing through from his desperate scrawls is reduced to murky gibberish. Mushrooms swelled from cracks of the
dirt in his silence—until he could not think.
"Is this the end, a flood of emptiness?" Went the name of the last tree
La Poupée Qui Tué Pygmalion
You, the one who moulded her,
The one who always deserves,
What charm was she born with
That she has not yet earned?
By pen and by a bowstring taught,
Violent rage remained contained
Behind a rough clay face
Which you mistook for skin,
Despite each inkling oozing gently
From the slits for her eyes and mouth.
When arrows glide forth, their sharp turns
Through air, their erudite grace
Can only be rivaled by such deception.
For that girlish intensity is the reflection
Of a bloodthirsty intellect beneath.
Their silver threatens your pose, since she nipped at the rose—
Paint out the blush, and finish your tea,
So you may drown in a red viscous sea—
Isn’t it cold to lift a finger for your chisel…
When she bawls, “Joue avec moi,
Je te mets au défi! Joue avec moi.“